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awful awful awful
Oct. 4th, 2009 07:13 amI'm familiar with the symptoms of PTSD because I read a lot of confidential psych evaluations. I most likely have it.
Anyway, I had the strongest non-flashback flashback in years, triggered by this little odor-mister thingamajig in the ladies room over at the law school going "hssst" as it operated, as I was drying my hands yesterday. Flashback is the wrong word, it wasn't actually a flash "back" to the traumatic event, but it was so strong I can't swear I didn't actually see something out of the corner of my eye, see a dark man that was going to reach out and grab me any second now, so strong and so vivid I cried and had to put my hand over my mouth to not scream. Horrible, horrible, horrible.
Anyway, I had the strongest non-flashback flashback in years, triggered by this little odor-mister thingamajig in the ladies room over at the law school going "hssst" as it operated, as I was drying my hands yesterday. Flashback is the wrong word, it wasn't actually a flash "back" to the traumatic event, but it was so strong I can't swear I didn't actually see something out of the corner of my eye, see a dark man that was going to reach out and grab me any second now, so strong and so vivid I cried and had to put my hand over my mouth to not scream. Horrible, horrible, horrible.